Capture My Heart

 I have enjoyed Christmas break, especially being able to linger in bed in the morning to spend time with God. This morning, I woke up with a song on my heart, and this one phrase kept repeating in my mind - “Holy Spirit, capture my heart”. I began to meditate on that and was led to pray, asking God to free me from “self”. From what I want. From how I feel. From what I crave. From what I desire. To deliver me from ME. After praying, I could see an image of prison bars in my mind.  Directly after, this is what I heard - "Prison bars are continuous rows of the capital letter "I".  I began to ponder and and chew on that.  How easy it is to get locked behind the prison bars of loving self more.  Protecting self.  Serving self.  Being behind prison bars creates an emptiness, a loneliness, and an inability to love others well.  This truly is the default of our flesh - to love ourselves most.  I am so thankful that God had, and perfectly executed, a plan to save us from our own self destruction.  Through Christ alone, we are over comers.  We need to allow the Holy Spirit to capture our hearts and set us free.  Father, I beg of you to help me take my eyes off of "me" and focus my eyes upon You.  I want to love You with all of my heart, soul, mind, and strength, AND love my neighbor MORE THAN myself- that my joy may be full in You.
The still, small voice is a beautiful one.  Let us take time to not only petition, but also to listen.  God desires intimacy with us.  He is faithful.